AMP: Artists' Meeting Place and Resource Collective

Monday, 24 July 2006
8:45. I can't believe it's the 24th of July already. I can't really remember anything that happened this month - that I did, that anyone did.

I didn't make anything - it's insane. It's absolutely insane and terrifying that I can just blow through 24 days with nothing to show when I come out the other side.

And what really happened last month, for that matter? Well OK, last month was a wonderful and memorable time to say the least, but it was all stress and hedonism. There was no creation going on then either. At least I made it to my studio. Once.

It feels like being perpetually on the edge of something. For three years now I've been eternally 'almost ready to get started'. There's always been just one more duty I need to fulfill, or thing I need to get set up, or tool/material I need to acquire, and then I'll really be able to do what I want to do. Then I can get my life started.

This is the part where I say "enough of all that." It ends now - I'm going to pursue my dreams and let nothing stand in my way. I've even got a project in mind and I will pursue it relentlessly, slowing down for no one and no thing, etc, etc, etc.

Now all I have to do is wait until 5, when I get off work, pick up my scooter, refill the gas, drive home, pay my rent and utilities for the month, clear off my workbench so I can get everything set up - oh and then I'll need to order new saw blades and replace some drill bits, so . . . . . .yeah.

I'll be ready to go in maybe, 2 weeks? But then I'll let nothing stand in my way.